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30 October 2007

The Heart Never Lies
by Mcfly

Some people laugh,
And some people cry,
And some people live,
And some people die,
And some people run,
Right into the fire,
And some people hide,
Their every desire

But we are the lovers,
If you don't believe me,
Then just look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies

And some people fight,
And some people fall,
Others pretend,
They don't care at all,
If you wanna fight,
I'll stand right beside you,
The day that you fall,
I'll be right behind you,
To pick up the pieces,
If you don't believe me,
Then just look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies

Woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhooh
Woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaoooooaaahhoooh

Another year over,
And we're still together,
It's not always easy,
But I'm here forever,

Yeah, we are the lovers,
I know you believe me,
When you look into my eyes,
Cause the heart never lies,
Cause the heart never lies, yeah,
Cause the heart never lies

Is it true that the heart never lies?

... 4:24 pm

28 October 2007

Photo time! These photos were all taken during Saturday's raya time. =D

More photos in my flickr account here. Any comments, tag!! =) I know they're all bad photos, but hey, candid shots are indeed fun.

Meh. You could tell that I could be bothered posting 52 photos here on my blog. -.-

And so yesterday occurred as such:-

Training at 8. Reached school at 8.30, bringing all my baju kurung and stuff to change into there. Nawawi, being himself, ended off late at 10 min to 10am, when we were supposed to meet the rest at Paya Lebar MRT at 10am. -.-

So we changed and off to Ridha's house. They left for Ridha's house without us, so we had to make our way there ourselves, which is fine and all. Met them all there, except Johan, who had to study, and Umar. -.-

Nevertheless, we had a schematic route on whose house to go for next, from the West to the East:-

i) Ridha's house
ii) Musli's house
iii) Farhan's house
iv) Hasif's house
v) Adeeb's house
vi) Hanif's house
vii) Nawawi's house

Didn't manage to go to Johan's house because we reached Nawawi's house at 7 and he rest had to go off. -.-

Let's see here:-

1) Ridha's house, TV was at Kids Central, stayed there from 1000 to 1100, only meal served was pudding.

2) My house, TV was on the Sports Channel, watching West Ham vs Sunderland, stayed from 1130 to 1300 because of Naruto PSP craze, ate speghetti.

3) Farhan's house, TV was on RTM1 -.- , stayed from 1330 to 1430, ate rice with some chicken, charged Hanif's PSP for an hour.

4) Hasif's house, TV was on Cartoon Network, watched Ben 10 (reminds you of Farhan 10? ^^), stayed from 1515 to 1600, ate fried chicken, murtabak minis and some sausages.

5) Adeeb's house, TV was on Channel 5 (I think?), stayed from 1630 to 1700, ate speghetti again. -.-

Nawawi: Eh, your house got echo right? *clap*clap*
Everyone: *lmao*
Hasif: Add that to Nawawi's joke book.
Farhan: I think the book no space already.
Hasif & Me: *simultaneously* Hahaha. Volume 2.

6) Hanif's house, TV was on Star World, watched Simpsons, stayed from 1730 to 1810, no meal served, charged Farhan's PSP but Hanif forgot to turn on the switch -.-

7) Nawawi's house, TV was on Channel 5, watched David Copperfield. stayed from 1845 to 2000. Ate fried noodles.

That was certainly a fun day... ^^

Planned to crash Shy's house, but didn't manage to because she was at an open-house. =(

Farhan's new nickname is 'Baby'. Cuz as per usual, when friends come over to his house, his family will conspire and suan him like mad. xP Poor baby... Hah. Recalled last year when his family served us a 'wholesome' meal, with chicken, lamb, fish, prawn, crabs, and other verieties of meat. =P Haha....

Luv Hasif's Japanese-ish decor in his house. And luv Hanif's wheelchair assecible facilities in his house. =D Haha...

< random >
Spotted a stall at Kampung Melayu called 'Hanifah MiniMart'. xP Haha. Maybe I should take a pic of it at post it here...
< /random >

We ended off abruptly, because Adeeb and Hasif had to go raya-ing with their families at night. And the rest couldn't be bothered to go to Johan's house at night. xD

But to me, I'm not used to going out from morning to night just for visiting houses. I would die of tiredness and boredom. Imagine going out at 10am and reaching home at 12am. -.-

Lalalala....

Okay, I know I shouldn't be posting this, but the temptation is really irresistable. xD

Somethings happened during the visits. Me, Farhan and Hanif spotted this NUMEROUS times. In fact, more than what my camera, could capture.

Two lovebirds next to each other. Ain't that sweet?! xD *cough*cough* Nawawi *cough*cough* Hasif *cough*cough*

Outside my block...

Interested?

At Farhan's house...

Eh? Kau malu-malu kucing ya?

At Bedok Int...

Hasif's block

At East Point...

Joking around...

Getting further...

Getting closer...

Outside Adeeb's block, playing...

Outside Hanif's block

Ooh! Their legs were 'touching' under Adeeb's table...

Hahaha!! xD

They're sooo gonna kill me for this.

And the weird thing is, they didn't even realise they were doing it excessively, in puclic on top of that.

But that's not it, they were holding hands outside Adeeb's block and swinging their arms as they walk. Farhan spotted them putting their arms around each other outside Nawawi's block. But on both occasions, I was too late to snap a photo. =/

And to top it off is a lovely quote:

Hasif: Nawawi, you need to do it to me first before you can go for Charmaine.

And the ironic thing was, today, during Madrasah, we were discussing on 377a. =P

... 7:47 pm

27 October 2007

Zzzz... tired. -.- Today was mainly an hour of training, then 10 hours of raya-ing with Sea + Band peeps.

Will blog about it and post some pictures about today tmr. -.-

Time for bed...

// Avatar Book 3 Chapter 9 : Nightmares and Daydreams //

... 10:44 pm

Quick post before I head to school for training -.- Stupid Nawawi make training directly before we are gonna go raya-ing to each other's houses. >.<

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Ain't 9 such a nice number?

9. The bus service which plys from Bedok Int to Changi Airport Cargo Complex, via New Upp Changi Rd, Bedok Rd, Upp Changi Rd, Simei Ave, Simei St 3, Simei Rd, Tampines Ave 2, Tampines Ave 7, Loyang Ave, Telok Paku Rd, Nicoll Dr, Airline Rd and Airport Cargo Rd.

Original route was between Lor 1 Geylang (Kallang) and Changi Point (Changi Village).
1981: Breakup of Upp Changi Rd due to Changi Airport construction caused it to be amended via Loyang Ave and Loyang Way.
Integration with 391. Route extended to loop at Changi Airport Cargo Complex.
1987: Amended via Upp Changi Rd East, Simei Rd, Tampines St 31, Ave 2, Ave 7, Loyang Ave. Skipped Bedok Rd, Upp Changi Rd and Loyang Way in both directions.
Cut short to start from Bedok Interchange due to MRT rationalization.
Route was amended to ply:
- (Direction 1) Upper Changi Rd East, Simei Ave, Simei St 3, Simei Rd instead of Upper Changi Rd East, Simei Rd.
- (Direction 2) Simei Rd, Simei St 3, Simei Ave, Upper Changi Rd East instead of Simei Rd, Upper Changi Rd East.
Route was again amended to ply:
- (Direction 1) New Upper Changi Rd, Bedok Rd, Upp Changi Rd, Simei Ave.
- (Direction 2) Simei Ave, Upp Changi Rd, Bedok Rd, New Upper Changi Rd.

Heh. 9 is my L1R5.

But when you think about it, if I were to get 9 points for O-levels next year. I can subtract four points because of my CCA and HMT, and I can get 5 points!

Cool. 5 is also another nice number. =D

Heh. Simei buses.... =P

What's the cut-off point for RJ again? Haha...

xP

But when you think about it, actually it's the percentage that matters. I can get 9 for L1R5, but my percentage is only 75.4%, and when compared to someone who got 11 points and a percentage of 76.4%, who is truly better?

Haiz.

Anyways, my report slip:

Clicky for actual size

Haiz.

I really got to stop boasting. I hate when I do it, be it intentionally or unintentionally. =(

I seriously feel bad for those who scored higher than 20 points, what more to those who scored higher than 30 points, especially you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, and you. =(

WHAT'S WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU!!!

But then again, not everyone can excel at everything. Take me for an example, I can never do sports. Seriously. And I feel really jealous when I see people playing with ~~their~~ a soccer ball. =( Cuz I can't kick for nuts. xD

Nor can I excel in any other sports. And nor do I watch the sports channel. =/

Ah well...

I don't mind trading my brain for some athletic abilities, seriously.

... 7:02 am

26 October 2007

Haha... I opened the Blogger window at 5pm and here I am now blogging at 11.45pm. -.-

But I guess today was well spent... I think. But it's definitely not one of those bad days I frequently suffer from.

[ Now Listening To: Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore - Way Back Into Love ]

Yep. Not a bad day at all.

Decided to wear contacts to school today. =D Reached school usual time. But heh, last day of sch, do you expect Chia asking the late-comers to see him before 7 the first day of school NEXT year? I'm sure they'll all forget. -.-

Assembly. Suppose to have PSL meeting Part 2 with Ms Tang. But it was postponed to after school, because we do not want any more barking from the teacher on stage of whom requires the Sec 2 cohort. I think it was Mr Ikhwan today I think... =/

[ Now Listening To: Boys Like Girls - Hero / Heroine ]

Then went to some briefing for students taking the MT O-Lvl next Wednesday in the auditorium. Mr Vanan's English rocks, seriously. Me and Jun Yan was laughing the whole way through. ^^ And then there was the white bench we placed yesterday conveniently placed behind the screen. -.-

Went for Malay class. And got this super huge thick stack of Malay notes because I didn't turn up for yesterday's lesson. -.- And there will be another lesson on Monday from 8 to 10. Eurgh. *pokes Danial*

Slept in class. -.- Big mistake though. My eyes got too dry and my right contact fell off. -.- Had to rush to the toilet to put it back in properly. Zzzz...

[ Now Listening To: The All-American Rejects - Dirty Little Secret (Live) ]

Then results are released. Frankly, I think my class did well, even though WWL said that 50% of the class underperformed just because they got an L1R5 higher than 12. =.=" Quote from him, "Your purpose in 3D is to challenge the PRC scholars." -.-

Wadevarzzz....

But I heard that many people has their report slips retained because they got L1R5 of 30 and higher. Frankly, I pity these people for it troublesome to ask your parents to collect the report slips on Monday and then the scoldings they will get etc. etc. Maybe its because I never experienced this before, so that's why I feel pitiful.

Haiz... one thing I hope for is that my friends and I can just go to the same school again next year. But it will be quite hard because of our difference in grades. =(

[ Now Listening To: Amy Winehouse feat. Jay-Z - Rehab (Remix) ]

Anyways, Leow deliberately came to our class early so that none of us could escape her class after school. =.=" Then when WWL leaves the class, Leow started to PMS all over us, screaming here and there, shouting like crazy, just because 75% of the class didn't turn up for Wednesday's lesson.

After the whole 'period', she decided to give us another chance and requested a re-class. But we promptly said we prefer to self-study, and she agreed. -.-

[ Now Listening To: Scissor Sisters - Filthy Gorgeous ]

Then began teaching us about the eye and stuff. But no matter how much I want to sleep, I couldn't sleep for the fear that my contacts will fall off again. -.- So I stoned there for an hour.

But it wasn't a waste of time I guess. She's merely using our free time whilst waiting for Minjoot, Maran and Chia to inspect the class. And even after she finished her lesson, they have yet to come to our class. They were at 3F when she finished.

Lol. WLS came into our class then and asked Justin what to do for the class reflection, saying that he is as baffled as the students on what to do. Lol. Imagine if the teacher himself doesn't know what to do, what can the class do then? ^^

[ Now Listening To: The Click Five - Empty ]

So then we waited another 10 mins-ish, then they came. Minjoot made some speech, then OFF!!!

Freedom!

Such a lovely word. Clothes off for the end of the Semester. =D

Aft school, went to the PSB Room, settle some stuff, then joined Farhan, Hasif and Nawawi at the Sea Room.

[ Now Listening To: Creed - My Sacrifice ]

Friday Prayers today was surprisingly EARLY!! Usually it would finish around 1.45pm to 2pm, but today, it finished at 1.20pm!!! And since it started early, many were rushing to join them, some of whom missed the prayers too. >.<

Hmmm... oh wells. Then Farhan's uncle was there with his Silvercab and cabbed me and Hasif to Tampines Mall for free. Haha. Hasif left to wander around TM, whilst trying his best to avoid the arcade. =P But seriously, what else is there to do there other than shopping? =.=" I bought a milkshake from Macs and thought of crashing my sister's house which was nearby. So I went into TM to get to her block, and saw Hasif going back to the entrance, after a good 5 mins of wandering?! =P

Cockster...

[ Now Listening To: Britney Spears - Gimme More ]

But then I just decided to take 21 back home. But,like what happened on 55, I slept and missed my stop, but then decided to sleep some more, till I reach Mustafa Center area there and then took 67 back to Kembangan. -.-

At home, watched some Avatar, entertained some visitors, and recorded some new songs for my iRiver! =D Finally found some local songs, of which are quite nice. Haha.

[ Now Listening To: Yellowcard - Only One ]

So that's basically my day today. Nothing bad happened right? Haha. I'm glad too. =P

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Avatar Reviews.

Chapter 6.

I thought this episode was great because we got to see what Roku and Sozin were like before the war and the events that led up to it. History is always interesting when it's visual. I can't believe that after all they went through Soizn left Roku to die but then we got to see baby Aang with was adorable.

I would have never expected Zuko to be Roku's great grandson which leads me to think that technically Aang is also Zuko's great grandfather just reincarnated. Iroh's new voice is good and almost sounds like his voice. It will never be as good as Mako's but I suppose that we should be happy with it.

But it's very pitiful to find out that Roku died a horrible death, and betrayed by his best friend on top of that. But the fact that Roku's dragon tried to protect him and dying along with him is really touching.

However, this episode is really contradictory compared to Winter Solstice. Why didn't Roku go into the Avatar State and bend the lava into the ocean, when in Winter Solstice, Roku bended the lava up from beneath the earths surface to destroy the temple. He couldn't have learned that move in the spirit world, as he cannot bend in the spirit world.

I personally just think the creators needed a way for Roku to die, in a way that it tied to the war and Sozin and this was the best way for them.

Rating: 9/10. Very Star Wars-ish, where some back-trekking is always good to find out people's history.

Ain't Roku cool?

Chapter 7.

The first episode in the season that is revolving around Toph.

The gang has a new animal pet thing to the group. Sparky Sparky Boom Man: Amazing. And when Aang actually used that name it was PRICELESS. "AAAAHHHHH IT'S THE SPARKY SPARKY BOOM MAN!"

I loved this episode; it was amazing and hilarious and extremely well done. Toph was an awesome scammer and I loved how she does it all with her "innocent" act. I loved the twist where the Combustion man gets the villagers ahead of time to create a wooden jail cell. That was really good. I was not expecting that, actually.

Did anybody notice that when Katara was delivering the final blow with her sweatbending that there was ALOT of sweat? *cringes* XDDDD

Oh. I also like how there still is some Toph/Katara tension going on. After their first night together in Season 2, they've stopped arguing as much but it was nice to see that they still get on each other's nerves. They really are quite different so it was nice to see how each other's pros and cons effect them. And of course, there was some nice Sokka/Toph moment with him trying to mediate with her. <333333

And I don't know how Hawky knows how to find Toph's parents, but I'm sure he's a clever hawk. He's not a Messenger Hawk for no reason. ^_^

Rating: 8/10. Not a fan of Toph though. But it was definitely hilarious.

Chapter 8.

Another amazing Avatar episode. I'm glad to see that the story's finally picking up speed. It was such an exciting episode. It was creepy and dark from the very beginning and made me very anxious the whole time. I was quite skeptical of the old lady.

Sokka's story telling skills win. Along with his Sasuke-like hair. XD Well, not really.

Let's see... Toph hearing the screams of the people was pretty freaky cool. It's so amazing how powerful her hearing is. The waterbender was amazingly powerful. And cynical and bitter. Her skills were amazing, like the finger daggers and taking the liquid from flower, which Katara also learned to do. The way she was retelling her story of how she learned to bloodbend was frightening; she really dug deep. I do wonder about the rest of the prisoners though... did they all die out and she was the last one? If there were still some left, how come she didn't set them free either? Hmmm...

At first I was like "omg, she might be related to Katara/Sokka!!!!" but she was too old and she was evil. Why would the producers wants her to be part of the heroes' family?

My ideas. Firstly, she will now be able to control anyone at anytime, and secondly maybe she will be able to take the water out of people just like plants to kill them quickly. But with the Katara blood bending thing, I do not think that she will use it but as a result of learning this will make her fear her own bending and that might result in her skill going backwards for and episode or 2 until her friends are in danger and she is the only one who can save them. That might happen if Hama Returns if of cause any of that happens that would the best episode ever.

Hama Vs Katara too, where Hama is stronger and scarier and more skilled and where Katara is scared to use her full potential until her friends lives are in danger.

Rating: 9.5/10. A wonderfully dark episode for Nick that surpassed my expectations beyond my wildest dreams.... Just the way I like it. ^^

Blood bending, certainly a cool hex ability.

But something is definitely 'scary' though in the episode:

Got freaked out for a while. xD

The ending bit was incredible! It's the scariest. That lady was a freak, though if I were Katara I wouldn't of burst into tears.

I can now imagine Katara dehydrating someone....to death.... Now I know Nick would never show something like that but wow wouldn't that be interesting....

... 5:10 pm

// Avatar Book 3 Chapter 6 : The Avatar and The Fire Lord //

// Avatar Book 3 Chapter 7 : The Runaway //

// Avatar Book 3 Chapter 8 : The Puppetmaster //

Apparently, England is airing two episodes of Avatar a day for this whole week, hence broadcasting the next 3 episodes of Avatar already! ^^ Yay for the Brits.

... 5:22 am

25 October 2007

Have you ever felt as if you never want the day to end ever? Not because of something bad that is occurring the next day, but simple because the day has been really enjoyable, pleasing and meaningful to you.

I felt as if I do not want the day to end, even though the day went through horribly.

[ Now Blasting To: Bon Jovi - Never Say Goodbye ]

I just realised the irony of the song in the previous entry. The artist listed out the bad things in the world, but yet he says that Life Is Wonderful. =/ Hmmm... so is it really wonderful, or merely an illusion?

Pseudo-emo mood now. Haiz. Why? Because the day is almost ending. =(

I dont want the day to end even though things turned out horribly today. Weird huh?

First it was at home before school. Usual, woke up late and stuff. Reached school, morning assembly, then PSL meeting with Ms Tang. But Mr Ee kept on barking at her for the Sec 2s to return back to their classes. =.=" And the whole meeting ended late, so I quickly went for Malay class. But the classroom was vacated because they apperently moved to another location, which I don't know about.

SMS-ed both Fadhil and Danial, but neither of them replied. Looked around here and there to find them. But I finally gave up when I met Lizhi and Glen at the ELDDS room. So I decided to help them make their props. It was a real 'foamy' experience. But during recess, Fadhil finally replied saying that they were in the 4th Floor Mother Tongue Room. >.<

Couldn't be bothered to join the class after recess because it will be simply awkward to just join the class randomly at any time like no one's business.

Helped out with more EMD ~~shit~~ stuff even till after the school is dissmissed which is about 12-ish.

Was super tired by then. But I think it was because of the massive amounts of CFCs in our brain. We blame Mr Tan for choosing the wonderful material, styrofoam, to make the roof and all the cuttings of styrofoam simply makes the Earth hates us more.

Dust particles all over the body, including the hair which makes it look as if we have dandruff. Not to mention that the ELDDS room was dusty to begin with. =.="

Got super pissed off after school though because some idiots of friends pang-seied me to Parkway without even inviting me, even though I was staring at the classroom, awaiting their presence. KNN...

Then again it could be because of the CFC. But still, got super pissed off and practically about to kill them when I found out, before Farhan treated me to some Old Chang Kee food for me. Frankly, I don't even know what they bought for me, but I think it was some squid and some fishball thing. =.="

Haiz...requested for Starbucks too to calm me down, but they didn't buy for me.

Helped to carry some benches from outside the DnT workshop to the auditorium, then headed for training with a pseudo-emo mood.

Tired. Slept a bit on the sofa. Then Nawawi kicked us out of the room. Blah. Training was a big blah. Lecture was stupid even though the Prof Test is next week. Then soccer, which I skipped deliberately and helped out Lizhi again with the props, this time with Danial's, Shervin's and his lovely saws' help.

Foamed. Went for dismissal. Then some meeting with Mrs Peh. Changed. Went back home. Tired.

But the reason why I wanted the day to never end is special.

[ EDIT ]

Oooh! I spotted the sexy bus SBS2822H and its cool interior refurbishment on Svc 31 today. =D Spotted it at 7.30pm outside of VS heading towards Tampines. =D

... 8:30 pm

24 October 2007

Life Is Wonderful
by Jason M'raz

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful

Sometimes you just need to stop anything you are doing and just appreciate how wonderful life can be. =)

When I am too tired, I delibrately take a long ride on buses to sleep. Just two weeks ago, I purposely took 30 all the way to Boon Lay from Bedok just to sleep. And just today, I fell asleep in 55 and missed my stop. And even though I woke up somewhere a Hougang, I delibrately fell asleep again all the way to Bishan.

A really inspirational song. I fell in love with it.

... 7:31 pm

23 October 2007

Sorry. Lazy to tag reply. =P

[ Now Listening To: Daphne Khoo - I'm Sorry ]

Anyways, today was very *insert word here* =/ You, you and you didn't come to school today. =( Makes me sad though...

Results. Not going to bother talking about it. Because I'll just end up bragging about how well my marks are and how it pales in comparison with Oswin's. And others will simply hate me and wanna kill me for actually achieving good grades and a good L1R5 all thanks to my Higher Malay and my Higher Art... *rollseyes*

Mdm Kwok didn't come for the past week, so the Combined SS + Geog marks have yet to be keyed in. So everyone in her class had F9 for it because CA2 alone is not enough to support your grade for the 2nd Semester. Not that I care...

People say, "You're so lucky. You have Art to support your L1R5 for Humanities". Well ain't it obvious? We stayed back two extra days, on a marking day nonetheless, putting in more effort and more hard work than those 'people'. And isn't it be fair that we get repaid for this extra amount of effort and sacrifices we had to make while people are already letting their hair go at Zion or next to their game consoles?

Intensive Malay Revision. No comments about it. Nor do I have any comments on what happened today during MT Intensive period. Shy gave back our papers then left us alone for one and a half hours with completely nothing to do... while the HCL people are suffering on the other block... *shifty eyes*

[ Now Listening To: Good Charlotte - Hold On ]

Heh. My parents gave me $50 and were forcing to buy new Tees from TM, yet I didn't have the motivation to go shopping since before the exams began. Heh. Finally managed to move my lazy ass there to buy new Tees. However, went a little bit over budget as I bought a new wallet, a new bag, a new pencil box, new earphones and of course some food. =P Heh...

But that was after my joyride after school. Haiz. So long never venture to the city. Passing by that ever memorable Kallang River where we got raped and thrashed during the Dragonboat Race on ever lovely 196. Saw a truck crash into a car at Cantonment. Dropped off at Outram. Took 124 to Telok Blangah. 131-ed pass Bukit Purmei to Bukit Merah. Took 5 over to Tiong Bahru for lunch at Macs. God knows when the last time I ate Macs.

[ Now Listening To: Lost Prophets - Rooftops ]

Then I finally caught the ever lovely bus coveted by my eyes for an eternity: SBS2822H. The wonderful bus, which has its interior refurbished, ply on Svc 5, and transported me, via Tiong Bahru Rd, Kim Seng Rd, Irwell Bank Rd, Paterson Rd, Scotts Rd, Newton Rd, Thomson Rd, Jln Toa Payoh, Pan-Island Expressway, Jln Eunos, Eunos Link, Kaki Bukit Ave 1, Bedok Reservoir Rd, Tampines Ave 1, Simei Ave and Simei St 3, over to East Point.

Picture courtesy of choww

Ain't it cool with its perimeter seating and plush carpeting, almost similar to the MRT? =D Plus, the low amount of passengers and the cold temperatures of the air-conditioning unit simply makes the whole journey a pleasurable ride. =D

Shopped at East Point. Then shopped at Tampines Mall. Reached home at 9. Ain't the day cool? =D

[ Now Listening To: Relient K - Be My Escape ]

And I'm fine about what's happening tomorrow. Malay mock test which is horribly impromptu. Orienteering competition which I have no attention span to bother. And neither does the people Nawawi is forcing to go support the team tmr. PSL Meeting to discuss the ever dreamy Peer Support Leadership Training Camp, where we have to pay either $25 or $64 just so to be tutored on wonderful topics almost 75% of the duration of the camp. *shify eyes*

Have to drop both because my sister doesn't have school tmr, so our family can go raya-ing. So I'll have to make the ever lovely proposals on that empty two-hour slot where the next batch of PSLs can just sit there either rotting or listening to LJM talking about his life story on how he couldn't get into the PSB Exco... *shifty eyes*

[ Now Listening To: Bon Jovi - Never Say Goodbye ]

And I also have to make a wonderful lecture notes for NCC Proficiency Tests! Because the fate of everyone receiving their badges all lie within my hands and whatever I type into the lecture notes... And what a time to have a test on Seamanship and NCC! After the exams... =.="

And Leow is making supplementary Biology lessons during the Post-Exam holidays just to cover up for her slow metabolism and teach the chapter on The Nervous System. Oh joy! She teaches! What a surprise... =.=" It's 100% confirmed the whole will be boycotting her lessons.

Glen wants us to do Green Bottles with the PSL Applicants tmr after school at the parade square under the hot sauna frenzy, also known as the Sun, oblivious to the fact that we shall all be in uniform sweating just to enforce some sense of discipline. *shifty eyes*

I'm anticipating such a lovely day tmr too...

[ Now Listening To: Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment ]

It's so obvious that I'm blanketing my emotions on what occurred today. Meh. I don't care less. Maybe I'm just too tired. Maybe it's because you, you and you didn't come to school today, that's why I feel so empty and so emotionless....

... 9:37 pm

21 October 2007

// Avatar . Book 3 . Chapter 5 . The Beach //

... 1:35 pm

19 October 2007

"Ohayogozaimasu.

Don't you ever wish that you can simply give a token of appreciation to your peers for simply being themselves and always there for you? However, your token of appreciation is too big to be materialistic and saying 'Thank You' face to face is simple not enough.

Don't you feel that you have developed certain bonds within certain people you know, mainly your peers? Throughout your years together, you have known each other better; their strengths, their weaknesses. You have been to each other's houses. You have even slept together before at camps; enduring harsh pain, torture and torments together.

A certain word of emphasis; together. You never stand alone. Together forever. Forever together. But that would be too lovey dovey now wouldn't it? We're all guys, males after all. It just would be right to say 'I love you' right smack on their faces. It's simple wrong.

But the world is changing. Statistics have proven that the number of Homos are rising. Statistics have shown that the number of single gender schools and the number of students enrolled in such schools have greatly increased. So does this mean that the world is changing for the worse?

But I digress. After all, even though in a single gender school, it's not wrong to say thanks to your peers. It's not wrong to have friends of the same gender right? Who in their right minds would say that?

But sometimes, even though your peers are very influential, you wish to thank them for being who they are. However, since you are of the same gender, you are reluctant to do certain things which you desire.

'You can always hug them.'

Hugs. Are hugs inclined to opposite genders and family relations only? What about brotherly love? It's considered being a family too isn't it?

Hug [hug]
verb (past hugged, past participle hugged, present participle hug·ging, 3rd person present singular hugs)
1. vti embrace affectionately: to put your arms around somebody’s body and hold the person tight to show affection or pleasure
2. vt put your arms around: to clasp your arms around a part of your own body
hugging her knees to her chest

3. vr put your arms around yourself: to put your arms around your own body, especially to keep warm
4. vr congratulate yourself: to congratulate yourself or show great delight
5. vt keep close: to remain in close linear proximity to something while moving in a forward direction
The sailboat hugged the coastline.

noun (plural hugs)
affectionate embrace: an affectionate embrace

Hug. Such a lovely word. The word itself simple wraps you in blanket of warmth that is indeed pleasurable. What more doing the real thing. It will greatly envelope you heart with a layer of warmth and affection that makes you feel thankful for what you have. =)

Musli needs a hug. Uncertain whether it is a need or a want. But nevertheless, it's never wrong to hug someone. He wants to hug each and everyone of you as a symbol of appreciation. But he mostly wants to hug a certain special somebody that he finds most intriguing about; somebody whom he is lost without; somebody who has been in his dreams for months. =)

Wouldn't it be nice to receive or give such affection to such a person? It will indeed be a beautiful moment.

But he is reluctant. Simply because, it's against Muslim rights to hug another guy THAT affectionately."

Free Hugs Campaign
All The Same by Sick Puppies

Sometimes, a hug is all what we need. Free hugs is a real life controversial story of Juan Mann, A man whose sole mission was to reach out and hug a stranger to brighten up their lives.

In this age of social disconnectivity and lack of human contact, the effects of the Free Hugs campaign became phenomenal.

As this symbol of human hope spread across the city, police and officials ordered the Free Hugs campaign BANNED. What we then witness is the true spirit of humanity come together in what can only be described as awe inspiring.

In the Spirit of the free hugs campaign, PASS THIS TO A FRIEND and HUG A STRANGER! After all, If you can reach just one person...

By: Kyoya Ootori

... 2:46 am

18 October 2007

Whee! I can now finally say this right...

Clothes Off For The End Of EOYs!!!

But it's very sad that our exams ended DAYS after the rest. While the other 200+ people from our cohort was already celebrating yesterday, we had another paper. =(

Oh well. We shall sacrifice for our art. xD

Lizhi: Soon when I die, you'll find my artworks priced at >$1000.

But the paper today was quite dumb. 10 questions. 10 mark each. 1 mark per point. That makes it 100 points to make in total. =.="

But nevertheless, I'M GLAD THE ORDEAL IS FINALLY OVER!!!!

*does a celebratory dance*

Okay...now I'm bored. xD

Hah. Post-exam blues. No surprise there. Usually after the exams, especially End-Of-Years, there's a tendency to have absolutely nothing to do. =P

But what am I saying? I still have my Raya to do, PSL Interview, PSLTC planning, mental aid for EMD + Yearbook, mugging for Malay O's. Haiz...

But you don't really mug for Mother Tongue right? Furthermore, with a whole week of intensive mother tongue next week, why mug at home too? -.=

Post-Exam Activities

Thursday 181007
: Marking Day <---- =.=Then why still got paper?
: PSL Interview!!
Friday 191007
: Checking Of Scripts
: Inter-class games after school =.="
: More PSL Interviews!!
Monday 221007
: Checking Of Scripts
Tuesday 231007
: Result Verification A.K.A Free Period =)
: MT Intensive Revision
Wednesday 241007
: MT Intensive Revision
Thursday 251007
: MT Intensive Revision
Friday 261007
: MT Intensive Revision
: FINAL DAY OF SCH!!! =D

Meep. I don't think I can survive four hours of MT a day. But then again, it's a class with Shy, and we can listen to our MP3 while we do some practice paper. =)

Meh. Guess it won't be THAT bad after all.

Glad I'm not taking Chinese either. =.=" Intensive Chinese is so totally different compared to Intensive Malay... =P

Oh wells. Now I'm super bored now. Even my Neopets browser is nowhere NEAR fun...

Haha. Hope to at least have fun with other people's game consoles when we go raya-ing. =D *pokes*pokes*

Oooh! I found my 2005 Yearbook! Let see if I can scan those bitchy comments I have...

*scanning*scanning*
HAHA! That so reminds me of Ismail... =P

DONE! Time to bitch!!

Picture 1:

Picture 2:

Picture 3:

Picture 4:

Picture 5:

Picture 6:

Picture 7:

Picture 8:

Picture 9:

Picture 10:

Haha. Bad scanning, I know. xD

Oh wells...

< seriously random >
My condolences to the poor fella who died too. =( Even though I don't know him personally, but ... the pain and tears are swept across every Victorian's heart. At least those with hearts. I know that my heart will burst in pain and sorrow whenever that happens to someone close to me. ;_;

Haiz... but the news spread quite fast though. A bit too fast... Hope the Sec 4s wont be too distracted from their O's.

But seriously, the traffic nowadays damn banana CB-jialat. Wed I cycled to school and whilst crossing this traffic junction, with the green man, I simply cycled to cross the road. But suddenly this impatient car turned from the junction without even stopping for pedestrians. And since he was about to hit me, I swerved right to avoid collision. Then the jibai driver horned at me cuz I 'cut into his lane' crap.

So stupid right? I was the one who didn't give way to pedestrians and he's blaming me for it? Good thing I was cycling too because I could swerve right whilst on foot...

Jibai driver.... >.< Spoil my good mood...

Off to bed! This entry took me a good... 6 hours?! o.o Haha...

... 5:23 pm

17 October 2007

Alphonsus: So Yun Han, how do you ensure that you don't befriend the junior too much until they step over your head?
Me: *roflmao*

PSL Interviews!!! Oh the joys of sitting there for hours listening to students selling themselves to join the board. =D Yay...

Gluck to them. They're gonna need it from the harsh filtration method we're doing. *pokes*

Danial, why don't you selit as well. Lizhi did that today.... *rollseyes*

One more paper left... on a marking day... =.=" Oh wells....

Have this urge to blog something big, but guess I'll just have to wait till after the exams... =)

Two more days... =D

... 7:23 pm

16 October 2007

Never Say Goodbye
by Bon Jovi

As I sit in this smokey room
The night about to end
I pass my time with strangers
But this bottle's my only friend

Remember when we used to park
On Butler Street out in the dark
Remember when we lost the keys
And you lost more than that in my backseat

Remember when we used to talk
About busting out - we'd break their hearts
Together - forever

Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
You and me and my old friends
Hoping it would never end
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
Holdin' on - we got to try
Holdin' on to never say goodbye

Remember days of skipping school
Racing cars and being cool
With a six pack and the radio
We didn't need no place to go

Remember at the prom that night
You and me we had a fight
But the band they played our favorite song
And I held you in my arms so strong

We danced so close
We danced so slow
And I swore I'd never let you go
Together - forever

Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
You and me and my old friends
Hoping it would never end
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
Holdin' on - we got to try
Holdin' on to never say goodbye

I guess you'd say we used to talk
About busting out
We'd break their hearts
Together - forever
Hey man I'm alive I'm takin' each day and night at a time

Pseudo-emo-mental-syndrome-moodiness strikes a critical blow once again....

And the rain is making it worse....

3 more days Musli ... you can wait 3 days ... 3 days....

... 6:11 pm

15 October 2007

SHIT! Just realised all my Bio TB, WB, file, notes, everything are in my locker....

... 8:47 pm

14 October 2007

Katakanlah, raya kan nak berGLAMOUR!

... 11:34 pm

// Avatar Book 3 Chapter 4 : Sokka's Master //

... 4:02 pm

13 October 2007

Salam Lebaran
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin

-------------------------

Feels kinda weird eating in broad daylight again. =P Haha...

Anyways, taking this opportunity to seek forgiveness from my peers, for any wrong doings that I made, be it physical or from the heart. =)

I would like to seek forgiveness from Farhan, Hasif, Hanif, Ridha, Adeeb, Umar, Haqeem, Nawawi, Johan, Fadhil, Ashmawi, Khalid, Wafiy, Danial Abdullah, Danial Hakim and plenty of others. =D Sorry for bastardising and/or hurting you in any way possible.

And of course, I also wish to seek forgiveness from my Cheena peers too. =) You know who you are, I just dont want a long list popping from my blog this early in the morning. xD

Haha. Anyways, you KNOW I'll always FORGIVE YOU....

... 6:53 am

12 October 2007

"Ohayogozaimasu.

Musli is still cramped up in his usual corner; still in a troubled mind. I think I may found the roots of his problems. But I need time to support these inferences, and possibly hope they aren't any misconceptions in any of them.

Will update soon."

By: Kyoya Ootori

... 2:06 am

11 October 2007

"Kombanwa.

Apologies if you find the Imeem Auto-Play Player in the previous entry annoying. Apparently it is what keeps Musli at ease these days. He has been in a bad mood lately due to both emotional stress and mental stress. The summation of both may be fatal, but these kinds of music tend to soothe the soul and mood of listeners.

What a lovely night tonight is. It may be just the wind talking, but there's an almost mystical feeling to the night which gives everyone some form on sensation within themselves. =)

I'm glad to say that despite Musli's bad mood, the night seems to lock his emotions in place. It's as if his emotions has been bottled up and drank by his own shadow, which even though follows him everywhere he goes, doesn't appear in this glorious darkness.

Speaking of darkness and moonlight, tomorrow will be the last day of the fasting month. After a month of fasting and holding onto the stomach, it's time once again to visit relatives, house to house, gobbling up every single meal they throw at you at each house. That is to say, you'll grow fat again.

Nevertheless, what more can worsen such an idealistic situation? Exams? Nah. Exams are simple a certain 'phase' which students have to go through to obtain good results so that they'll have a chance of clinching a better occupation in the near future. Being a straight A student, I too am used to the stress which comes tagging along with the exams. But not to worry, once the exams are over, the stress will immediately vaporise and disintegrate into nothingness, flowing out of your body which has been enclosing this amount of pressure for a year. =)

But still, I'm a bit worried about Musli though. When people fast, they are going through a test of endurance; enduring the intentions of eating, drinking, uttering vulgarities, crying, and PMS-ing. What's worse is that the lack of food and energy tend to send out certain impulses to your brain which causes you to be at a PMS-verge during the day.

I think he is currently going through that phase of a mental breakdown due to numerous stress. But even I cannot comprehend such superior complexities of a mind such as his. It has undergone various mutations and has been twisted again and again by by the likes of his friends and whatever that occurs in his daily life, be it at home, school or during his joyrides. Just like the lyrics of the song he is blasting into his eardrums every 5 minutes, "No one no one no one, Can get in the way of what I’m feeling, No one no one no one, Can get in the way of what I feel for you...", no one can understand his situation he is going through right now no matter how much we tend to infer from what he 'does' his 'feelings' or so to say. But is it true?

What he doesn't realise is that people are there to aid you through tough situations. You have your family, your friends, all of whom are always there to lend a hand whenever you are in trouble. When you bottle up your feelings, all you are doing is simply to hide your true emotions from the world and this will tend to 'bite you in the back' as you cannot hide it forever. And people can tell if you are hiding something when you seclude yourself from others and from the world. You'll be considered individualistic and tends to be a loner. And this is not good, especially when you need a helping hand. Whenever you solve your own problems on your own, you have a tendency to make the wrong decision and once you realise that it is the wrong decision, it will be difficult to back-track. That's why you need friends to help support you of your decisions, not to add pressure to you by following their decisions.

But nevertheless, the symptoms are pretty much clear seeing by what Musli have done during this exam period. He's simply struck by the heart by betrayal, hatred and vengeance. Yet he is not willing to let go, simply because a certain connection is still present and he wants this connection to be harnessed into something strong, powerful and ever-lasting. But that's not going to be possible as his heart has been sank like the titanic; struck by ice, split in half and gobbled up by the ocean all the way to the seabed.

And it needs time to heal. During the course of healing, all sorts of an emotional roller-coaster will whizz through the mind and the heart. Hatred, love, sorrow, desire, gloomy, depression, craziness, etc. And these mood-swings are indeed very hard to control, especially when someone is claustrophobically trapped in an enclosed situation. This is when the person is most vulnerable. It is the point of time where he or she will go through extreme situations to obtain something he or she desires, even through death.

And this is where friends and families come in. You see your friends in trouble, take time to help them, even if they tend to ignore you or show you that 'leave me alone' snarl. If required, give him a few hours alone, but keep close watch. After a while, have a nice talk to discuss the problem. A solution should be derived as quickly as possible no matter how difficult it may be for the person.

Hmmm...I seem to be digressing. But nevertheless, when you see Musli tomorrow, take time and show him a warm and friendly smile. He'll gladly accept that smile and show one in return. This warmth and fuzziness will certainly envelopes ones heart with a layer of wamth and soothingness to rid of any problems momentarily. ^^ This may rid him of his current situation."

By: Kyoya Ootori

... 10:09 pm

09 October 2007

No One
by Alicia Keys

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don’t worry cuz
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything’s gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights

I don’t worry cuz
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything’s gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try
Try to divide
Something so real
So till the end of time
I’m telling you that

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
oh oh oh …

Pseudo-emo mood on.

Maybe cuz I'm tired from all the shopping and mall-hopping from TM to WS to EP to Geylang Bazaar today....

... 1:33 pm

08 October 2007

Aah! I took the wrong time to resume my addiction to caffeine... >.<

I regret changing my sleeping cycle.

[ Now Listening To: Ne-Yo - Sexy Love ]

Haiz. Can't help but feeling rushed time and time again. Especially since it is the Exam Period, where students are busy mugging, and Hari Raya Period, where people are busy cleaning the house and baking cakes and cookies.

Frankly, don't feel too motivated for Hari Raya this year. Not looking forward to it at all. It's not that I hate the holiday. I just hate how Singaporeans celebrate the holiday. Visiting houses for a whole month, just to seek forgiveness and recieve free cash. So troublesome... >.<

Hah. Because of the exams, I'm not even helping my family clean the house or bake cookies. =P

[ Now Listening To: Pink - U + Ur Hand ]

Hmm... where was I? Oh ya. Caffeine. Can't believe I spammed coffee and tea this weekend. And of all the times to do so.

Friday night. I went to Geylang Bazaar alone. Found lots of interesting bargains, which is really tempting to buy. But I ended up just buying a Mocha Mudslide Ice-Blended from Coffee Bean nearby. ^^ So milky and so delicious....

But then I had insomnia afterwards. Ended up sleeping at 3.30am just to be woken up at 5am. Slept again and woke up at 2pm!

What a waste of a Saturday morning. Especially since I had planned to go to Tampines Mall / White Sands / East Point to shop before leaving for my overnight stay at the mosque. >.<

[ Now Listening To: All-American Rejects - It Ends Tonight ]

Quickly changed and left for school, because I left my E.Maths and History books in my locker. Stupid 155 frequency. IRIS stated next bus 28min, but the bus came 34min later! >.< Aargh! That's the last time I'm taking 155 to school.

Left school at 3.30-ish and left for Tampines Mall. But by the time I reached there was already 4.15pm so I decided to head home instead because I'm supposed to be at the mosque by 5.

Went home. Still got time, so I decided to take a short 5 min nap. But I ended up sleeping for one hour! >.< Reached the mosque at 6.30pm...

But the overnight stay or iktiqaf is actually quite fun. =D Not many turned up. But surprisingly, all those who turned up were guys. Don't know where the females went.... o.o

What we did were basically a lot of prayers and lectures on BGR Love, Abortion and Motherly Love.

[ Now Listening To: Feist - 1,2,3,4 ]

The lectures quite boring la. But it got quite draggy till 11. Supposed to wake up at 3 for some early morning prayers, but no one slept. Why? The mosque provided us with a whole carton of Arabian Tea the whole night, from break-fast to breakfast. Since it's free, everyone, including me, spammed. Ended up drinking over 15 cups of the Tea, with over a dozen toilet trips. xP

Since no one slept, decided to mug for my History. No surprise there, the Sec 4 abangs were mugging A.Maths, the older abangs with their Poly and JC stuff, and the little kiddys who were playing Wrestling cards. =.=

The uztaz joined in and started telling us cold jokes and scary stories. =D Heh. Damn fun...

But one thing I find effective was the visualisation done by the uztaz there on Motherly Love. They had this background music in a dark room, and the way they presented with a certain pitiful tone, made it really effective. I could see many were tearing. =)

And why not? Cry your hearts out for your parents. They are the ones who made you appear in this world. They are the ones who sacrificed to raise you up to who you are now.

Take some time. Appreciate your parents. Give them a hug and a kiss, and simply apologize for any mistakes done, and thank them for what they had done to you. =)

[ Now Listening To: Fall Out Boy - Thnks Fr Th Mmrs ]

Got dismissed at 6am on Sunday morning and reached home at 6.30. Slept till 4pm. =.=" Haiz. No time to shop at TM again. =(

Followed my parents to Geylang Bazaar. They bought me 2 baju kurungs, a new pair of jeans, a new bag and promised me a new wallet. =D Yay! ^^

Reached home. Mugged with more coffee. Found this saches of super bitter, yet addictive and strong coffee at home. Spammed 5 cups of those and couldn't sleep the whole night!

Which I did. The whole night was spent on mugging for History. All I did was to study on Japan. Could open up more memory space for the other chapters. =(

And it was good thing too. Japan came out for SEQ in the paper today. =) But unfortunately, due to the lack of sleep, I completely blanked out in the middle of the exam! All the random Japanese facts popped up in my head. But none of them were consistent.

[ Now Listening To: Colbie Cailat - Bubbly ]

Eergh. Felt that my efforts to mug were all wasted. >.<

Can't believe the term 'propaganda' was buried underneath all those facts. Didn't use it in my essay even though it is like, the most common Historical term used! >.< Eergh!

Me: Confident of History?
Hasif: Confident on failing.

Agreed. History paper gone. Only SS could save me. I have more confidence on my SS than History, unlike SA1.

But this is the kind of situation where I'm thankful I'm taking Art. I can't afford to screw up my Art next week. =(

[ Now Listening To: Simple Plan - Perfect ]

E. Maths paper surprisingly easy this SA. I finished Section A in one hour and Section B in 45 min. Heh. Still have time to sleep. =D Definitely Lau didn't set. xD

English Paper 2 tmr. Nothing to mug, so now I'm bored ~~not mugging for Geog~~ with a Neopets browser open. =.="

Heh. Today, after History Paper, was spent to catch up on my sleep. Slept from 3 to 10. Couldn't sleep now. Haiz. My family had KFC for break-fast whilst I was asleep... >.<

Oh wells. Guess I'll go record some songs into my iRiver....

[ Now Listening To: Blake Lewis - You Give Love A Bad Name ]

Oh ya! If anyone has suggestions on how I can change back my sleeping cycle, please tag and suggest... =.=" I feel so screwed right now...

... 11:54 pm

07 October 2007

Caffeinated
and
♥ LOVING ♥
it.

... 11:57 pm

// Avatar Book 3 Chapter 3 // The Painted Lady //

... 11:49 pm

05 October 2007

Clothes Off For End Of SS!!

Whee... that was a random title. But yes, cheers to the halfway done humanities. ^.^

[ Now Listening To: Gym Class Heroes - Clothes Off ]

Haha. Ripped off Danial/Yogi/Linus blogs. =3 They're right. It's eerily suits. o.o Points to final paragraph... =0

You are feeling really miserable at this time and you'd like to form a relationship with someone with whom you could really communicate. At the same time, whoever it may be, that special 'someone' must not conflict with your own belief system or ideals. This makes for tough going - but it would seem that the situation is only transitory. It will soon pass.

In actual fact you are not willing to exert yourself in any way. You have that truly 'laid back' attitude and are unwilling to extend yourself or exert undue effort. You feel that to move forward - be it in your life style or in business relationships - would require more energy output than you are prepared to give at this time. You want to take life easy and your attitude is such that 'Enough is Enough'.

It is amazing that you yourself believe that old 'adage' that you are a misunderstood person - and you feel that because of this you are being left out in the cold. It is because of this lack of believed understanding that you feel the need to conform to society in general - but this situation leaves you 'cold' knowing that you are not appreciated for your true self. Any relationship that you are developing at this time does not seem to involve any true emotional commitment, you seem to be just playing along.

Stresses resulting from a recent disappointment have led to considerable trepidation. It would seem that there seems to be so much left undone. Everything surrounds you with that air of uncertainty. You badly need to feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further disappointment. At this particular time you doubt that things could be any better in the future but you are sticking to your guns and refusing to take advice from any source.

Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a 'fantasy land' but unfortunately 'fantasy land' is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.

Seriously, I wonder how picking 8 colour blocks in a certain sequence could tell all that. =/ Think it also has something to do with how long you take you click on each block.... =0 Hmmm....

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Farhan: Hasif, let's go to the mosque.
Hasif: No thanks. I'm going to Simei and having my Friday prayers there.

Haiz. The next Danial. =/ I'm overwhelmed with disappointment, because there's no mosque at Simei. And that's a stupid excuse to skip Friday prayers, which is compulsory to all Muslim men who have gone through puberty.

Don't tell me he haven't gone through puberty... =.=" Oh wait, seeing by his childish behaviour, maybe he haven't! Heh...

[ Now Listening To: Mat Kearney - Undeniable ]

Anyways, today was surprisingly fun.

Woke up sleepy today because I slept late last night for last minute revision of SS. Heh. Slept throughout the whole journey to school.

English Paper I today. Had fun bastardising my friends. =3 Chose the topic where I am in lost of words with the behaviour of my friend. Basically, I just compiled Hasif, Farhan, Bobo, Nawawi and Johan into one person (yes, it's possible even with Farhan being 10 people and all...) and starts bastardising their bad points in the essay. xD

So the 'friend' was the one who plucks hair in class, received really bad grades, love to flick others other, loves to bastard other people and was the one who broke someones arm and kicked a ball off the forth floor.

Heh. That was certainly a fun reflection.

[ Now Listening To: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel ]

But I'm a bit scared of my Formal Letter though. I wrote 3 full pages fo rthe letter, which is obviously too long and is very prone to get out of point. Recall that my Arguementative Essay for CA2 was also super long, and it got out of point. >.<

Haiz. Having my fingers cross though.

Break between the papers was spent in the PSB Room. Last-minute mugged for SS, remembering facts of Sri Lanka conflict, conflict in Northern Ireland and Bonding Singapore.

But unfortunately, I missed out on reading about the Northern Ireland government and that was a real loss because I memorised everything else, but couldn't pick Qn 3 because of that one part. >.< So I did Qn 2 of the SS Paper instead. Could roughly recall my SA1 work. And I thank Leo for actually giving us the answers for Qn 2a beforehand! Cheers! ^^

[ Now Listening To: Fergie - Clumsy ]

But I crapped up for Qn 2b, because I forgot some of the facts of Privatisation and NHS. >.< I fear what I wrote proved that I mixed up the meaning of 'describe' and 'explain' which are both forming two different levels. >.< Haiz. Just hope I'll get B3 for that paper.

But that would be hard to get since I crapped up my SBQ too. Took me 1 hour to do, because anything that pops up in my mind about the source, I write it down as my answer whether it is right or wrong. =S

My hand was really numb at the end of the paper.

[ Now Listening To: Linkin Park - Numb ]

But then Ng wanted us to stay back to do some Physics test. But it's okay since it's only 10 MCQs on the chapter of Heat and it's very hard for one teacher who is invigilating 3 classes to spot us cheating on tests at the back of the hall. ^.^

Friday prayers afterwards. Then 197-ed and 60-ed back home. ^^

Recalled some sayings heard during the speech given during Friday Prayers. It says something like, if you donate some money before Hari Raya Prayers on Hari Raya under supervision (ie. from father), all the bad words uttered throughout the year shall be forgiven. ^^

[ Now Listening To: Backstreet Boys - Inconsolable ]

Oh ya. I wanna slap the whilstling gang who caused so much trouble just now! >.< *cough* Farhan, Bobo, Qian Hao, Jeremy Tan *cough*cough*

... 2:54 pm

04 October 2007

Bleh. The Macs in the Media Lab are so slow nowadays. >.< It wasn't this slow before but now it's seriously lagging.

And I'm bored to death waiting for the files to load. What more waiting for my video to upload onto the computer. >.< Hate it.

Damn! Extra Social Studies lesson starts at 1.45pm and it's already 1.39pm. Stupid Mac.

Estimated time left = 11.33 minutes

=.="

Gah! Growing impatient here....

Oh ya. Today is the first day of EOYs. Finally got my lazy ass over to school. Yup, staying at home for two days can make a guy feel so immobile.

Higher Malay paper was a killer. But it HML was a killer, I'm sure HCL papers are n-th times more difficult than that.

Paper I. Section A is either write a letter to a certain school concerning certain students from that school who were caught doing inhumane things to a cat, or write a conversation on which is better, Junir College or Polytechnic? I chose Section A.

Section B. 3 choices. Firstly, write an account for when you recieved something you had longed to recieve. Secondly, disscuss the saying, 'inner beauty is better than outer beauty'. Thirdly, is based on a Malay saying, where every single human has their own strengths and limitations. All boring subjects. But I chose the first one, saying that I longed to receive a happy family with nice children and a good husband. ^^

But Paper I was considered quite easy actually. Paper II was the real killer. First 3 sections of the paper, gone already. Read the passages, couldn't connect much, especially the Peribahasa (Malay sayings) part. But the Comprehension were relatively easier to comprehend. The first one based on first-person perspective on a life of cockroaches where humans are out there wanting to kill you. The seconds one is about 'The Adolescent Period' where it is full of stress and such.... Meh.

Wrapped up the comprehensions and summary in one and a half hour, before being stunned by the supposedly easy passages. Couldn't help but to write crap for those passages. The most I could lose is only 50 marks out of 120. =/ Hah.

Got bored after a while, and decided to 'roll' the string in chalk before tieing the scripts. ^^ Now it's a blue string. xP Haha...

~~Managed to copy some answers from Fadhil - surprisingly and without getting caught! =0 Haha.~~

But I just hope tmr's English Paper I and Social Studies won't be too difficult, especially the time consuming SS, which I'm totally unprepared for and I'm FREAKING OUT over it!!!

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Meh guess I'll update further at home. Just leaving the Mac alone whilst I plan to go to class. =.=" Stupid thing...

[ EDIT ]

*on radio*
Caller: Art is pissing me off....
DJ #1: Okay. Then just scream on air: 'F'Art. C'mon.
Caller: 'F' ART!
DJ #1: Louder!
Caller: 'F' ART!!!!
DJ #1: Louder!!!!
Caller: 'F' ART!!!!!!!!!!
DJ #2: Crazy la. Fart so loud.

Hmm... back at home. I'm damn pissed off with the Macs really. Feel like changing my Performance Art to me killing an apple. >.<

So annoying.

See, what happened was that after Paper I, me and Lizhi, who was really kind enough to follow me, went up to the Media Lab to help me upload the files. But I forgot that I left my video in .wmv format. And with the computers there being Macs, it cannot be detected.

So Lizhi found a site called zamzar.com where they can convert your .wmv files to .mov format suitable for Macs. But unfortunately the waiting time was beyond control. *cough* 15 minutes *cough*. But since the Paper II was starting soon, we just left it to convert on its own.

And so, after Paper II, I went up to the Media Lab to find the freaking file stuck there at 45% complete. And it's NOT moving at all. So I tried uploading again. But it still got stuck at 45%. >.< Then I tried opening up other online converters but all of them either took too much time or got stuck in midst on conversion as well.

Got really pissed off.

But thankfully, had this great idea to borrow Danial's WINDOWS laptop to convert the file. Which I did. Thankfully. And I converted it to .mov format in LESS THAN 3 SECONDS!! >.<

So after going down from the 6th floor to the MC Room, went back up to upload. BUT UNFORTUNATELY, the freaking file cannot be read by the stupid Mac, claiming that the file is unsupported yada yada... >.<

Got really pissed off and took a break at the back of the Media Lab where there are smelly bean bags and pillows to rest on. No duh. It's the place where Zabid sleeps every afternoon whilst fasting. =.=" Anyways, couldn't help but wait for something helpful to drop from the sky.

Decided to call Li Zhi. But his freaking phone was off! >.<

After which I ran back down to the MC Room, borrowed Danial's laptop again and converted the file to .mp4 and .avi formats. Unfortunately, BOTH ARE ALSO UNCOMPATIBLE!!! >.<

Stupid Mac. Wasted my time there.

All 3 movie files unsupported. Got pissed off and just submitted an unsuported file. Because the thing is, I don't know WHAT to do. The files are only compatible with Windows, but Mac consider it unsupported and couldn't play it. Some internal Mac error I think, that's why conversion was stuck at 45%.

But I STILL DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIX IT!! I submitted a blank file. I'm at risk of getting zero for that assignment. SOMEONE HELP ME!!! Eergh!!

And the thing is, I didn't go for the Social Studies class because of the stupid Mac thing and I consider it a loss that I couldn't upload the file, and I didn't go for class! >.<

Really feel like killing a chicken right now, or an apple! >.<

Did the chicken die? No-lah sia.

[ EDIT ]

Aaah! Not only am I pissed off over my Art, but I'm also pissed off by the fact that my SS notes are written in soluble ink & got dissolved by the rain!!!

;_;

NNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

... 1:36 pm

03 October 2007

BANANA THIS!! >.<

Sometimes I wonder whether I had made the right decision. That if I chose the other way, it will end up bad or simply ruin my life. But then again, the decisions I made often end up bad as well.

So are my decisions necessarily correct?

Woke up today at 7 with my head aching like shit, but the will to go to school is still there. But my dad told me that if I really feel ill, I'm excused from school, especially since I already have an MC for today.

But then again, today is the last day of lessons before the exams, which is totally unprepared for. What if I have last minute questions to raise? Am I able to email the teachers to get a reply ASAP?

I don't think so.

Higher Malay as the first paper on Thursday. Dad said that since there's no HMT today, might as well not go to school; revise at home will be a better option. I'm quite unsure and uneasy about the decision I made. Dad could only say those things to me because he's lazy to send me to school; that he wants more rest before he has to leave for work.

I feel totally uncomfortable staying at home for another day. Felt as if I'm quarantined. Felt as if I'm weak to fight against this.

Then again, I could just be lazy... No. I'm sure that the exams are too important to neglect.

Weakened. And I'm confused. =S It could be the lack of energy since I'm fasting. But it could be that I had lost out to this evil laziness within me and that something called conscious is attacking me with all its regrets and self-pity.

I'm more compelled to feel that I had made the wrong decision to stay home. I have yet to uploade the overdue Performance Art Video. And I have homework to be submitted for Homework Marks, which is accounted for in SA2. The more I delay, the more marks are deducted. And there goes my hopes to get a Single Digit L1R5.

I'm sure the Art Teachers are gonna fcuk me upside down for not submitting my work. I can't help feeling so dead. And helpless.

Ooh! Lizhi just called me saying that other than the Video, I have to do sketches on the planning process of the performance piece and a short 200-word write-up on the performance piece. And it's supposedly due today no matter what! >.< I hate them so much...

But what's more hurtful is not the studies or the marks, it's .......

...it's complicated I guess. =/

Two days, and I feel uncomfortable and weak. What more during the 2 month holiday break. I'm sure I'll end up weaker than usual. I'm sure I'll end up going out more than usual; joyriding. But that won't suffice. I need that Umph! power that keeps me alive, up and going for days or even weeks, and in this case, months.

I'm not sure I'm up for the 2 month long break, seeing how I'll end up becoming... Maybe the Holiday Studying Programme ain't a bad idea after all....

... 3:33 pm

02 October 2007

After a week of not going to the mosque for Terawih, I finally got my ass over to the mosque! =D Yay!

Hmmm... plenty of things occurred. Plenty of things to blog about. Don't know where to begin. =S

[ Now Listening To: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel ]

Hmm... radio is playing an emo song. So I'll guess I'll start with the emo part first.

Sunday. Did something stupid and overslept till Madrasah was over. My mom got pissed off and banned me from going to PSLTC! ;_; Ah well. She added the fuel to my fire because I was already pissed off then. But I managed to convince her to let me go if I were to sleep overnight at the mosque next weekend. =/

The things I have to do.... =.="

Yesterday, seeing from my previous blog entry, was really piss-ful. >.< And not in a good way. It's because of these fucking ass-hole teachers which made me so mad that I started blaming anyone and everyone around me...

So, I just wanna say Sorry for that. Saying sorry is always good when you know you've done something wrong. And in the season of Hari Raya, it's always good to seek forgiveness and be forgiven.

And I'm especially sorry to you, my-special-person-whom-I-think-others-know-who
you-are-because-I-mentioned-you-a-gajjillion-times-in-this-blog. =3

Took a day off from school today because my head was still aching from yesterday's annoyance. But unlike some people, *poke*poke* I don't recieve tons of worried SMS-es early in the morning. =P

Shan't talk about what happen in school yesterday, because I don't feel like reliving something so stupid.

[ Now Listening To: Melee - Built To Last ]

But something weird happened though yesterday. After I reached home at 8, I just slept to even bother about what was happening around me. Was so mad at that time that I dreamt killing everyone in my dreams. o.o. One by one, I buried (or earth-bended =.=") Danial, Li Zhi, Linus, Farhan, Hasif and a few other people.

And during that weird 8 hour sleep, all sorts of random characters popped up. There were familiar faces from Pokemon, some Digimon were there as well. And if I'm not mistaken, there were some characters whom I shall not name, having sex. o.o

[ Now Listening To: Britney Spears - Gimme More ]

Uber weird dream. =/

Must be my mood. And before I knew it, it was already time to fast again. So I ate, then went back to sleep, for another 8 hours. I was really giddy at that time...

And guess what? Had another stupid dream. And I seriously mean stupid. >.< Shall not talk about it because I'll end up insulting or hurting someone with a really sensitive heart when pierced. *pokes*

Haha. Woke up at 2 today. Had to go to the doctor to get an MC. And since I don't want to pay $50 at a nearby neighbourhood clinic, decided to go to Bedok Polyclinics. But since it was around dismissal time, I decided to stay at home for a while because I don't want anyone to spot me 'truanting' at Bedok, like last time. =/ Which reminds me, I'll have to kick your ass for that. >.<

[ Now Listening To: T-Pain feat. Akon - Bartender ]

Anyways, left at 3. Reached there to find the main entrance spoilt, so had to detour all the way to the back door to enter. =/ Haha. Made up stupid excuses and the doctor gave me 2 days MC, which is really surprising because Polyclinics hardly give two day MCs to students. Furthermore, it is the exam period! Haha.

Oh well. Guess I have a reason to skip PE tmr. =/

[ Now Listening To: Aly & Aj - Potential Breakup Song ]

As per usual for me, a pissed off mood will ALWAYS end up in an emo mood. In this case, the sorry(s). =.=" But I have to get it of my chest, especially the blames. It was such a burden. So I decided to joyride after my trip to the doctors. =3

Haha.

But still, now I feel A LOT better! And instead of being sorry, I'd like to Thank you people. =3

DOMO ARIGATO!! xD

[ Now Listening To: Paramore - Misery Business ]

Just finished my Performance Art Video. It's due today. And even though I'll give the 'I was absent' excuse, those fucked up assholes of art teachers will still blame me and all cuz they 'give us' 2 weeks for it to be uploaded.... >.<

Eergh. There I go, making me pissed off again...

Shall calm myself down over a cute Avatar spoiler. =3 Yay! xD

OMG! Momo licked Appa's tongue. That's so disgusting! >.<

[ Now Listening To: All American Rejects - Dirty Little Secret ]

Me: Have Fun Darlings! *wink*

... 9:15 pm

01 October 2007

Eergh. My brain feels like exploding.
No matter how you look at it, school is fucked up.
The people there are just plain annoying.
And the teachers are such bitches.
Art is damn fucked up.
Why did I take the subject in the first place.
Bloody teachers.
Feel like killing anyone and everyone around me.
Even you.
Feel like burying you to the magma core.
I hate you so much...

... 8:02 pm