"Kombanwa.
Apologies if you find the Imeem Auto-Play Player in the previous entry annoying. Apparently it is what keeps Musli at ease these days. He has been in a bad mood lately due to both emotional stress and mental stress. The summation of both may be fatal, but these kinds of music tend to soothe the soul and mood of listeners.
What a lovely night tonight is. It may be just the wind talking, but there's an almost mystical feeling to the night which gives everyone some form on sensation within themselves. =)
I'm glad to say that despite Musli's bad mood, the night seems to lock his emotions in place. It's as if his emotions has been bottled up and drank by his own shadow, which even though follows him everywhere he goes, doesn't appear in this glorious darkness.
Speaking of darkness and moonlight, tomorrow will be the last day of the fasting month. After a month of fasting and holding onto the stomach, it's time once again to visit relatives, house to house, gobbling up every single meal they throw at you at each house. That is to say, you'll grow fat again.
Nevertheless, what more can worsen such an idealistic situation? Exams? Nah. Exams are simple a certain 'phase' which students have to go through to obtain good results so that they'll have a chance of clinching a better occupation in the near future. Being a straight A student, I too am used to the stress which comes tagging along with the exams. But not to worry, once the exams are over, the stress will immediately vaporise and disintegrate into nothingness, flowing out of your body which has been enclosing this amount of pressure for a year. =)
But still, I'm a bit worried about Musli though. When people fast, they are going through a test of endurance; enduring the intentions of eating, drinking, uttering vulgarities, crying, and PMS-ing. What's worse is that the lack of food and energy tend to send out certain impulses to your brain which causes you to be at a PMS-verge during the day.
I think he is currently going through that phase of a mental breakdown due to numerous stress. But even I cannot comprehend such superior complexities of a mind such as his. It has undergone various mutations and has been twisted again and again by by the likes of his friends and whatever that occurs in his daily life, be it at home, school or during his joyrides. Just like the lyrics of the song he is blasting into his eardrums every 5 minutes,
"No one no one no one, Can get in the way of what I’m feeling, No one no one no one, Can get in the way of what I feel for you...", no one can understand his situation he is going through right now no matter how much we tend to infer from what he 'does' his 'feelings' or so to say. But is it true?
What he doesn't realise is that people are there to aid you through tough situations. You have your family, your friends, all of whom are always there to lend a hand whenever you are in trouble. When you bottle up your feelings, all you are doing is simply to hide your true emotions from the world and this will tend to 'bite you in the back' as you cannot hide it forever. And people can tell if you are hiding something when you seclude yourself from others and from the world. You'll be considered individualistic and tends to be a loner. And this is not good, especially when you need a helping hand. Whenever you solve your own problems on your own, you have a tendency to make the wrong decision and once you realise that it is the wrong decision, it will be difficult to back-track. That's why you need friends to help support you of your decisions, not to add pressure to you by following
their decisions.
But nevertheless, the symptoms are pretty much clear seeing by what Musli have done during this exam period. He's simply struck by the heart by betrayal, hatred and vengeance. Yet he is not willing to let go, simply because a certain connection is still present and he wants this connection to be harnessed into something strong, powerful and ever-lasting. But that's not going to be possible as his heart has been sank like the titanic; struck by ice, split in half and gobbled up by the ocean all the way to the seabed.
And it needs time to heal. During the course of healing, all sorts of an emotional roller-coaster will whizz through the mind and the heart. Hatred, love, sorrow, desire, gloomy, depression, craziness, etc. And these mood-swings are indeed very hard to control, especially when someone is claustrophobically trapped in an enclosed situation. This is when the person is most vulnerable. It is the point of time where he or she will go through extreme situations to obtain something he or she desires, even through death.
And this is where friends and families come in. You see your friends in trouble, take time to help them, even if they tend to ignore you or show you that 'leave me alone' snarl. If required, give him a few hours alone, but keep close watch. After a while, have a nice talk to discuss the problem. A solution should be derived as quickly as possible no matter how difficult it may be for the person.
Hmmm...I seem to be digressing. But nevertheless, when you see Musli tomorrow, take time and show him a warm and friendly smile. He'll gladly accept that smile and show one in return. This warmth and fuzziness will certainly envelopes ones heart with a layer of wamth and soothingness to rid of any problems momentarily. ^^ This may rid him of his current situation.
"By: Kyoya Ootori
... 10:09 pm
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